Nine Frames Project (stage five)

At this stage the piece is being cleared up and all the drawings very amalgamated into a pile, which I then took home and sorted through to see if any were salvageable.

Nine Frames Project (stage four)

Stage four exhibits the aftermath of my performances.  The room is now covered in blood (paint) to portray the death of my creativity in a very literal sense.  Everything has been torn off the walls and now lays on the floor in heaps, showcasing my hatred for my work and how I don't care what happens to it.  The plastic sheeting became very effective at this stage as the space was now less accessible due to the paint covering the floor but viewers could still see inside through the 'walls' and their view is now distorted by the paint splatters.

Nine Frames Project (Performance)

The Death Of Creativity, Chaz Howkins, 2015, performance

In this performance I occupied my space by laying down in it and sleeping to express a sense of having given up.

Nine Frames Project (close ups of installation)

I feel that I used to be more creative.  I used to draw for fun far more often.  Now, the only time I draw for fun is while drunk or high.  I find this very sad as it shows I feel the need to alter my state of mind in order to be creative.  I decided to incorporate this into the installation by covering the walls in my intoxicated drawings.  Some of the drawings are fairly humorous as they are incredibly narcissistic self portraits or jokes I've made to myself, whereas some are just scribbles which I thought looked amazing at the time of creation.

To express a sense of creative frustration, I also covered the walls with blank 'ideas' lists, endless to-do lists, self-deprecating notes to myself and print outs of tips on how to be more productive.